Emotionally Exhausting

 Being a student athlete, I'm pretty much physically exhausted every single day from September all they way through March. I have practice every single day including game days and our only day off is Sunday. Practice isn't the only thing that causes me to be exhausted. It's also the amount of study hall hours, class, traveling all over the country etc. Anyway, enough talk about being an athlete, there has been some emotional exhaustion throughout my life as well.
My junior year of high school is certainly a year to remember for me. My aunt passed away in a brutal car accident in which she died instantly due to how hard the impact was. She was literally like my best friend and losing her caused me to be stressed and just emotionally weak for a while. She was my dad's youngest sister and they were also very close. When this tragic incident happened it was the first and only time I have EVER seen my dad break down crying and when I witnessed that, I have never been more heart broken in my life. When my mom cries it's a different feeling because she's a woman and she is always very emotional but I still hate seeing her cry but when I seen my dad just burst out crying, that truly hit me hard. It took my dad a while to recover from this which is why he had to see a therapist because he was way too stressed out and his mental was all over the place. I hated every moment of watching my dad look depressed when I came home from school, he was a completely different person and this made me extremely emotionally exhausted because I was always so worried about him. It took my dad about 3 long months to move on from this and I was just so happy and relieved to see him smiling again. It doesn't end here though, about a week after my dad was feeling better I suffered from an injury that caused me to miss my entire junior year season. When this happened I just felt as if my hoop dreams were over, I thought I wouldn't come back the same and I wouldn't get a chance to be a division 1 athlete. Every single coach that was recruiting just completely stopped when they heard I was injured. Watching my team practice and play in exciting games was torture for me I just could not deal with not being able to play. We were ranked top 5 team in New York and was expected to win the states until I got injured. My team still made it pretty far but if I was out there on the court we would have went much further and that's why this still haunts me today because I always wanted a high school state championship ring. 2012 was just a long and brutal year for me, definitely the most emotionally exhausting experience I have been through. But, after all that I am still where I was expecting i'd be today and that entire year has
made me grateful and appreciative of life as well as what I have in life and to never take anything for granted because what you love, someone you love, or even you can be gone in a heart beat